2. What Is My Source?

Let it be, let it be as I say to you, if you shall not have eaten the flesh of the Son of man and shall not have drunk His blood, you do not have life inside yourselves. The one eating of My flesh and drinking of My blood has life age-unfolding (John 6:53-54).

If anyone thirsts, let him come towards [connect with] Me and drink. The one believing into me, as the Scripture has said, rivers of living water will overflow out from his belly [his womb, his innermost being] (John 7:37-38).

We have seen that we must set this central action of our participation in the gospel of Salvation against the other kind of eating. – Of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die (Genesis 2:17).

The first four words of the serpent, then, constituted the most massive blow against eating of the tree of life, that is, of Christ Jesus, in the knowledge of all humans. – Did God indeed say? And by those four words Satan drove Jesus far away from the word God speaks. This is the spirit of anti-Christ.

We must understand the spirit of anti-Christ. You see, every step we take in and as the revelation of Jesus Christ will be hit by every screaming wail of the evil one speaking Bible words against Christ. And it is amazing to me that the words spoken publicly against the things I teach are so often the same in mode and spirit as the words spoken publicly against Jesus. It does not enter the minds of these people that their words are Biblical, already spoken by demons in the mouths of the Pharisees in their mockery of Jesus.

I had such “Bible words” thrown against me on Facebook again recently, from a source that, by all human judgment, should have known better. But rather than making any false attempt at “discernment,” let me address John’s clear definitions of the spirit of anti-Christ.

Now, I speak strongly, because we must. Nonetheless, I drew this one into the Mercy Seat of my heart, releasing them into the love of God and confessing to myself that this one loves me with all the love of God outpoured in their hearts, even though they may not realize it.

Nonetheless, I was very disturbed inside. That disturbance brought to mind the agony that tore Jesus to pieces in His own mind upon the cross. And I knew that God was sharing Jesus with me. Yet out from His agony, the only words Jesus spoke were – Father, forgive them – as I also did.

Who is the liar, if not the one speaking against, contradicting, that Jesus is not Christ? This is anti-Christ, the one speaking against, contradicting the Father and the Son. Everyone speaking contrary to the Son, does not have the Father. The one who speaks the same word with the Son, also possesses the Father. – …Many fake [dishonest] prophets have gone out [from us] into the world. By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that speaks the same word with Jesus Christ {yes, Jesus-Christ as one together in the Greek} having come inside the flesh {Christ, not I – referencing Galatians 2:20} is out from God; and any spirit that does not speak the same word with Jesus Christ having come inside of flesh {I, not Christ} is not out from God. And this is that [spirit] of anti-Christ, which you heard is coming, and is now already inside the cosmos (1 John 2:22-23 & 4:1-3).

The first thing that the spirit of anti-Christ does is to drive a wedge between Jesus and Christ. And the second thing is to drive a wedge between Jesus and me.

Jesus is one thing and Christ is another. Jesus is far away from you.

Both of these accusations are caused absolutely in the human psyche by the serpent’s words – Did God indeed say? But there is also a third action there as well, and that is – God is not a keeper of covenant – God does not do what He says, not here, not now, and not in you, idiot.

If you were to remove the pretending and the mental ideas in the words that were written at me, the person was saying three things to me, very strongly. (My paraphrase.)

Daniel, you idiot – Jesus and Christ are not the same thing. Jesus is far away from you. And God does not keep His covenant with you, so stop imagining that He does.

It is an enemy who has done this. – We are in no game. But on this one will I look: on him who is poor and of a contrite spirit, and who trembles at My word (Isaiah 66:2).

Yes, Jesus carries us through all, and He lives as us in spite of the fact that we prostitute ourselves with every wicked spirit in this world. But that does not mean we should play games with God or His word.

Jesus IS Christ. Christ IS Jesus. And Jesus lives in my heart in Person. I am His flesh. And I cannot relate with anyone who imagines otherwise. So, I must give this warning to anyone who would use the things I write but who removes the word “Jesus” and puts in the word “Christ.” You do not have my permission to do that – but hey, you can do anything you want with the word God speaks, anything at all.

The absence of the fear of God scares the “daylights” out of me.

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Eating of Jesus is the cause. A universe of life that has never yet existed is the effect. What does it mean to eat Jesus’ flesh and drink His blood?

Yet we have also made this assertion, that the cause of a universe of life is God seen and known. For that reason, we must see the continuous connection taking place inside of and through us between our eating of Jesus’ flesh and drinking of His blood – and – Father seen and known through us.

Drink of Me. Eat of Me. Learn of Me.

Writing and reading out loud into audio the last part of “Lesson 2.3 Lost inside of Salvation” in Set My People Free was about the furthest “out there” I have gone on that particular topic. But since writing it, I have lived in the quiet sensation that I am always coming out of my Father. And now I understand The Issue.

I have yet to write the next chapters in that text, but I will also be addressing the issue there. It will be the same topic as here, but here I want to go in a different direction.

The issue is – What is my source? Out from what do I come every moment?

If I say that God is my source, then I rest absolutely in the Lord Jesus Christ keeping me, energeoing me, and making me holy in every way. And beyond that – showing me what it means to share Hheart with my Father.

If I say that “I” have a “fallen sinful nature,” then I am saying that “I” am my own source.
Source, by definition, means “god.”

As I have done the JSV translation – a simple exercise anyone could do using the layout of Strong’s definitions at www.biblehub.com – I have seen how the theological definitions of the Greek words are imposed upon their real meanings, clearly there on the page.

Two key Greek words are hupakoe and homologia, translated into “obedience” as human performance and “confess” as mental acknowledgement of correct theology. In actuality they mean “submission to hearing” and “speaking the same word.”

“Hear and obey” is found at the heart of the Old Covenant, but “hear and believe” is the heart of the New. “Hear and obey” is not found once in the New Testament.

Consider again John’s definition of what he means the only times he used the word “anti-Christ.” He is contrasting two concepts – speaking the same word WITH (Christ as me) versus speaking against (I, not Christ). Then, he follows that clear definition with this overwhelming statement, hidden by translation and unbelief. Let’s give it in the New King James first.

You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4).

Here is what the Greek really says - You ARE continuously and actively coming out of God, deeply loved children, and have already perfectly and completely overcome and defeated them [the false spirits] {those who speak contrary to Christ, who speak “I, not Christ.”}, because greater is the One inside of you than the one in the world.

Here is the progression, as we have seen – God’s thoughts concerning me – sustaining me by the Word of His power – the word is in my mouth – I speak the same word.

Romans 10:8 shows us that our submission to hearing happens with Christ, every word God speaks, inside our mouth. As we speak the same word, so we are living as God our Father being the only source we are, coming through Christ Jesus our only life, to be us in our every expression inside of vessels of weakness.

In complete contrast, the whole concept of “hear and obey,” of moral living, of doing what is right and refusing to do what is wrong, can be found only inside of those who see themselves as their own starting point, who believe that they have a “fallen sinful nature” which they themselves must “correct.” In their imagination, they are their own source; they are their own “god.”

Look again at Romans 8:8-10. The word {Christ, the Word God speaks} is near you in place and time, in your mouth and in your heart; that is, the word of faith which we proclaim. That, if you speak the same word in your mouth, speaking the Lord Jesus indeed, and believe inside your heart that God raised Him out from the dead, you will be saved. Indeed the heart is believing into righteousness; and the mouth is speaking the same word {that is Christ} into salvation.

Notice how the heart and the mouth are connected fully and tightly together. Then we realize that the insertion of the English word “confess,” which, in its received theological definition, means “to acknowledge correct doctrine as mental ideas,” breaks that connection of Word from heart to mouth and places the mind as predominant. In fact, for most, “the heart believes” is dismissed quite early on and replaced by a strong mind-mouth connection.

Then we look at the two kinds of judgment. – I am not able of Myself to do anything; even as I hear, so I judge; and My judgment is just, because I do not seek my own desire, but the desire of the One having sent Me (John 5:30). – VS – You judge according to the flesh, down to its finest details; I am not judging anyone. And if I were to judge, however, My judgment is true, because I am not alone, but I and the Father having sent Me (John 8:15-16).

Notice that Jesus “sees” by what He hears, and that in hearing, He never looks to Himself as His own source, but only to the Father always with Him. Notice how the word “sent” becomes, in this context, the same as the word “ARE” in 1 John 4:4, that is, the always present and active tense. In other words, “The Father who is continuously and actively sending Me into you.”

The Pharisees, on the other hand, were seeing by outward sight. To see according to the flesh, then, is to connect the eyes to the mouth by way of the mind, with the heart held in suspicion as the probable source of everything wrong inside the human.

And so we have two places of knowing.

First is the knowing of the heart, inside of which dwells the Lord Jesus Christ, with Father inside of Him, our continuous and only source. Out from that heart-knowing we speak the same word that is Christ, and thus our eyes see, and our mind thinks, two very useful servants of compassion and truth.

But second is the knowing of the mind, the place in the human where the fantasy of “myself” is generated. But look how this fantasy-mind judges. It determines its own reality by the seeing of the eyes (including the other four senses used in the same perverse way), and thus the mind imposes on the heart a “fallen human nature” out from its inherent dissatisfaction or unthankfulness. This mental imposition, then, drives away from the human heart any knowledge of Christ Jesus living there as our only source. In agreement with this false mind as the taskmaster, then, the heart sends words of cursing to the mouth, “I am fallen short of God; I am always missing the target; I am never quite living up to my expectations of myself.”

Indeed, those who exist according to flesh, think about and out of the flesh, those however existing according to Spirit think out of the Spirit. Indeed, death is the thought of the flesh, but life and peace are the thought of the Spirit. Because the thinking of the flesh {the thinking of separation from God} is alienation into God; it is not placed under the law of God, nor indeed can it be. More than that, those existing inside of flesh are not able to please or satisfy God.

BUT YOU ARE NOT in flesh, but INSIDE OF Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells inside of you (Romans 8:5-9).

I always marveled, over the years, at how preachers were so capable of skipping over verse 9, never even noticing that it was there as they grandly condemned “the carnal mind” in us. You can see, however, how Paul is saying the same thing as I have described here. The problem inside the human is the mind that says, “I am my own source; I have a fallen sinful NATURE.”

This is what I am coming to understand as I consider carefully the source of the speaking-against coming from my brothers and sisters in Christ. It is a war between the mind and the heart for control of the story of self.

Now, we have seen that the heart exudes an energy field 5000 times stronger than the energy field coming out of the brain. So, it’s quite an easy thing to say, “Jesus lives in my heart through faith.” More than that, here is the place of our source inside of us.

And believe inside your heart that God raised Him out from the dead, you will be saved. Indeed the heart is believing into righteousness.

 Notice how, “God raised Him out from the dead,” when it is found inside the heart, means something totally different than “God raised Him out from the dead,” when found inside the mind. The first is the nature of our source, Christ Jesus alive in us every moment, and the second is the nature of our fantasy, imagining that a mental idea is “God” to us.

Here is the contradiction. The one who “corrected” me stated, in so many words, that Jesus is far away from me but that “Christ as me” is referring only to the Holy Spirit. It seems to me, as I have pondered this contradiction, that the words “Holy Spirit,” were an idea in this person’s mind.

Those who continue to refuse the full immersion of the Holy Spirit in experience keep themselves unreachable, locked in a mind that imagines its own ideas to be “God.”

My own real surrender to God did not happen when I asked Jesus into my heart at age seven. It did not happen when I asked for forgiveness of my sins, for Jesus to take me back to Himself at age nineteen. It happened, in actuality, several months later.

I was driving to work, minding my own business, when another PERSON intruded Himself into my awareness. That Person stuck His bony finger into my forehead, so to speak, and spoke these words. They were in question form, but it did not feel like a question. It felt much more like a fiercely Pro-Determined demand.

“Will you surrender all that you are to Me?”

That was a bit much. I did not like the sound of that at all. I managed to put the Fellow off through the hours of work, though my heart was much battered by that very insistent “question.” On my way home, I continued to wrestle against such a thing, but, as I turned into the driveway, my stubbornness gave way. Before I came to a stop, I said, “Yes, Lord.” I did not know then that I really said, “Let it be to me according to Your word.”

As soon as I came to a stop, I HAD TO run up to my room as fast as I could, but before I could drop to my knees beside my bed, rivers of living water were already flowing up from my heart in a heavenly language separate from the control of my mind.

Out from the abundance of my heart, my mouth spoke words out from and to my Father that my intellectual mind did not know.

Now, the hardness of the mind of the flesh, that is, the mind that places its own ideas as if they are all there is of a distant “god” that one needs, and thus that sees itself as its own source, whether it calls that source “my fallen human nature” or so-called “Christ as me” held as an idea separate from Jesus Himself inside the heart, either way, that is a topic we must develop in another rambling letter.

(But notice the actual words of Paul – “alienation into God,” typically translated “hostile to God.” You see how the mind, by elevating its own “right” ideas as its own rule, alienates God as a Personal Person, even though the fantasizer remains in God, for there is no other place.)

Unless our human soul is immersed into the Holy Spirit, by our willing permission, such that the demonstration of the Spirit and power flows actively through our mind, our desires, and our emotions, we cannot know that the Father in Person, through Christ Jesus in Person inside of our hearts (Spirit and Word always together), is our source every moment.

And we will take every word God speaks and place it only as an idea inside our minds, and thus imagine that, because we have the “right ideas,” we are safe.

The mind is a wonderful servant but a terrible master. And there is one difference only between the two – Jesus lives in my heart through “Let it be to me.”

Let’s return now to the metaphor of eating and drinking of Christ.

It’s a simple concept, really. Dirt – Transformed – Eat – Body. The dirt becomes a plant, and the plant becomes an animal, but it remains dirt in its essence. And then that dirt becomes our body in a living, active, and continual flow.

You can cover your body with dirt, but it will not make that dirt become your body. First, the dirt has to be transformed into a plant or an animal (And He took the bread, blessed it and broke it, saying, “This is My Body). Then, the dirt becomes our body ONLY as we EAT it.

In the same way, the thoughts that are us inside of Father cannot become us unless they are transformed through the speaking that is Christ. Then, those words become the story of our lives only as we also speak them.

And, of course, you eat what you want; eating is always by desire. God is a vast buffet. His thoughts concerning you are without end. BUT you eat only of those words becoming you according to your own desire in the present season. Every individual is free to heap on their plate whatever food they wish. A study of each person’s plate, after passing through the buffet lines, will show a completely unique arrangement of food types and proportions from one plate to the next.

So, after I go through the buffet at Souper Salad, you would find mostly green peas and black olives piled on top of onions, etc., but no lettuce at all. In other words, my plate is always quite different from anyone else’s. The same is true at a regular full-meal buffet. Meat loaf and beef stew, cabbage and onions, broccoli and carrots, yes. But when I look at what most people pile on their plates, it interests me not at all.

Yet all are free to eat whatever and as much as they wish.

So, what is the biggest dish inside of God that I have piled on my plate daily over the last ten years? That’s an easy one, the only food that really interests me. – If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make Our home with him.

“I am FILLED full with all of You, my Father. You are so close; You are part of me.”

Vary the words slightly, and that is always the biggest amount on my plate, though it is always surrounded by other complimentary choices.

What do I want? I want to be filled with my Father; I want to share heart with God. I want my Father’s heart beating inside my chest. I want His word written all through the pathways of my heart.

And thus I eat, and thus I speak.

And here’s the deal. No one, not even the most sectarian and hard-headed theologian, has the power to prevent me from eating whatever Word God speaks I wish to eat, and they especially do not have the power to prevent God from doing that Word in me and through us together.

You can tell what anyone likes to eat by looking at their plates at the end of a vast buffet service. You can tell what anyone wants in their hearts by looking at the words coming out of their mouth. For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks (Luke 6:45).

As I have wanted, so I have eaten. And as I have eaten, so I have become.

This is why, as I wrote for the first time that saying, “I have a sinful human nature,” is claiming to be one’s own “god,” that I now KNOW, fully in place, the deep and continuous sense of my Father arising through Christ in my heart to be all that I am.

I am what I eat. I know what I speak. I possess all that I want – My Father, my life, my source, with my head always leaned against Jesus’ breast.

God is my source; I come from nowhere else.