42. Healing God's Heart

© Daniel Yordy – 2021

This is a most extraordinary proposition, that we would even consider God in this way or that we would be part of such an action – to heal God’s broken Heart!

Yet we must reckon with this reality, that this picture of Jesus under the cross gives us the clearest, most direct view of God as He is, the least “metaphorical” view, and the most immediate and real. If you want to see God, look at this Man.



He was their King; He was their Savior; He was their Creator; He was their Sustainer in all goodness and joy. They lived because of Him.

Jesus is God’s Heart; Jesus is our heart.

Here is Jesus now. This One, moreover, having offered one unlimited sacrifice for sins, sat down inside of the right hand of God; from now on waiting expectantly for His enemies to be made a footstool for His feet (Hebrews 10:12-13).

Waiting for each one to give thanks for the goodness by which they actually live.

Let’s begin with the evident testimony of Scripture, that God is passionate and emotional, and that human action causes Him great distress. That is our base assumption, that God has a heart, and that we humans have broken His heart.

Then, we ask ourselves – What were the specific things we humans have done, right from the start, that had God recoiling in pain and even confusion? (See Jesus in Psalm 22.) Going through the text “Set My People Free,” would give us the exact specifics.

Let’s start with the biggest – CONTEMPT FOR OTHERS.

Contempt is the core and root of all human hatred of God.

Consider the most horrifying words ever spoken in all human history – penned by Paul the apostle of Christ – Adam was NOT deceived.

Adam made the decision to eat of the knowledge of death, KNOWING full well all the HORROR of consequence that must flow out of his action, for one reason only. He chose to control his wife because he despised her.

Here is the evidence for that claim, from Genesis 3.

Then the Lord God called to Adam and said to him, “Where are you?” So he said, “I heard Your voice in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; and I hid myself.” And He said, “Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree of which I commanded you that you should not eat?” Then the man said, “The woman whom You gave to be with me, she gave me of the tree, and I ate.”

Offering his wife for destruction in order to save his own skin did not come to Adam in that moment when God said, “Where are you?” It was the contempt originating his rebellion.

Contempt for other people is the core and root of all human hatred of God. – Whatever you do to the least of these My brethren, you ARE doing it to Me.

Then let’s look at the first event of human history in Genesis 4.

So the Lord said to Cain, “Why are you angry? And why has your countenance fallen? If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin crouches at the door wanting you to rule over it.” Now Cain talked with Abel his brother; and it came to pass, when they were in the field, that Cain rose up against Abel his brother and killed him. Then the Lord said to Cain, “Where is Abel your brother?” He said, “I do not know. Am I my brother’s keeper?” And He said, “What have you done? The voice of your brother’s blood cries out to Me from the ground.”

Notice the underlined wording – the change is mine. I don’t know much about Hebrew, but I do know God and His Salvation. Sin wants you to try to rule over it, that’s what Adam chose. When sin persuades you to turn to look upon it, it now has you in its grip whether you succeed in controlling it just a bit, or fail utterly, for, regardless, your back is now turned against Christ.

Where is Abel your brother? – Where is Abel your brother? – Where is Abel your brother?

Then, when God asked the same questions of Jesus that He had asked of Adam and Cain, here is what Isaiah heard Jesus say. “Here am I, I AND the children whom You have given Me.”

“Where are Your brothers and sisters, Jesus?” “Here they are, Father, all of them with Me, inside of Me.”

This pattern is so powerful and so clearly set in place by God, that no honest heart could miss it.

Here’s the thing. God shares the life of every created entity entirely together with them, though they know it not, for all created things come only out from the original thoughts of God that are part of Himself.

Then, God does not know sin or evil. That means that He has no comprehension of that heart that reaches out the hands to hurt and to steal. What He does comprehend, however, is the HURT experienced by the one being hurt.

Here is the evidence of that statement. – Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows (Isaiah 53).

And God knows only the truth, that what He speaks, the Lord Jesus Christ, is utterly and always true. – So, when God hears a created being screaming accusation back against Himself that He lies, those words catch Him entirely off-guard, one might say, for He has no comprehension of the cause of those words, though He knows full well their impact.

For six thousand years most all humans have accused God and hurt others in most every moment and action. This is the fruit of “knowing good and evil” and God expected none of it. God expects only Christ, for Christ is the only reality, regardless of all human make-believe.

Arrogance that accuses God of lying and contempt that hurts one another.

God has no idea of what arrogance and contempt might be for He is meek and lowly of Heart and He sees others as better. And so every single time the harsh words and the hurtful actions come against Him, He has no idea why.

Again, look at Jesus upon the cross in Psalm 22. It is clear that He has no idea why.

We imagine that we are accusing other people who “deserve” to be accused. We imagine that we are simply defending “what is mine.” And we have not reckoned with the harsh reality that every single time our words and our actions have been AGAINST the Father’s Heart.

Let’s look at two words that must be known together.

And the Lord was sorry that He had made man on the earth, and He was grieved in His heart (Genesis 6:6).

That’s the first line, but the second we must extrapolate from another verse.

“You shall also make a lampstand of pure gold; the lampstand shall be of hammered work. Its shaft, its branches, its bowls, its ornamental knobs, and flowers shall be of one piece” (Exodus 25:31).

This is stated clearly concerning the lampstand. We then consider the Mercy Seat in the same way, for it also is made of one piece of pure gold, and it also is hammered. – You shall make a mercy seat of pure gold (Exodus 25:17).

The Reese Chronological Bible places God’s terrible thought in Genesis 6:6 at 2439 BC, that is, 1,536 years after Adam’s rebellion (by educated speculation only). The “reset” we might say, then, covers from 2439 BC to 2318 BC when God makes the rainbow covenant with Noah, or 1,657 years from Adam’s rebellion. Thus the time from this rainbow covenant until the end of six thousand years (AD 2029 coming up soon) is 4,343 years. (These numbers have no significance except to give us a framework for understanding history.)

In essence, moving out from His own great Heart-grief, God cleanses the earth with water and makes a covenant with the remnant, in short, to find another way. That other way is pictured to us by the Mercy Seat as one piece of pure gold being beaten into a human form by hammers, and expressed through these words – Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows.

Here is what I am saying.

From the moment Adam made his hard and vicious decision, humans have engaged in a wicked, vicious, perverted, and un-called for all-out assault, as in total war, against the Father’s Heart. For about 1500 years, God bore with this cruelty without response, carrying His great grief inside His Heart. – As Paul said in Romans 3, “Because in His forbearance God had passed over the sins that were previously committed.”

Then, from the moment He made the covenant with Noah, God set forth His Heart for mankind, that our vile attacks against His Heart would serve as little hammers, hammering God’s Heart into human shape, hammering God’s Heart to fit our hearts.

For 4,335 years, now, God has placed His Heart into the human experience, to be beaten into the shape of a Mercy that fits our humanity.

In like manner, then, as we place the Lord Jesus Christ upon every moment and circumstance of our lives, entirely through faith, so we find that every moment and every circumstance has been the same set of hammers, hammering our hearts to fit God’s Heart.

Only one thing will ever heal God’s Heart, and that is two hearts, His and a human’s, beating as One. And this happens only through our reckless confidence that God is telling us the truth.

And although God knew nothing of human rebellion, He did know that this shared Hheart would be the outcome of the human experience, for this Hheart is Jesus, and God has always known Christ.

God your Father has allowed His Heart to be beaten into the shape of your human heart, and God your Father has caused your human heart to be beaten into the shape of His Heart.

When we know that, when we really and truly know that and when we know nothing else, then Father’s Heart is healed. This profound knowing is the faith in the Word God speaks that pleases God and answers all His pain.

Yet this very knowledge, then, requires the other side of the occasion.

To share Hheart with God is to have the same care of the Father towards each created being or thing coming out from Him.

As we have seen, the Greek word thanatos, translated “death,” has several very different meanings, according to the context. I want to insert another definition of “death” that I have never known or considered before now.

While I was writing my book, The Covenant, I hit a brick wall that left me bloody and bruised, so to speak, right after finishing Chapter 5, “Gethsemane.” And thus I wrote Chapter 6, “God of the Cup,” in my agony of confusion.

You see, I was toying with the idea of asking the question, “Why did God need ‘murder’ in order to redeem us?” As I realize now concerning my thinking at that time, I would have whacked myself upside the head as well.

And, of course, during that season, once I had recovered from the pain, I wrote these lines as the opening of Chapter 7. “The way of the cross is a way of life, not a way of death; it is a way of living, not a way of dying. We have always known it wrongly.”

That was God’s answer to me at that time. Nonetheless, what I was groping for was actually of God, but I had no basis for knowing the truth.

Jesus was NOT ‘murdered.’ Humans were incapable of killing Jesus. Here is what He said in John 10 in the NKJV. – “Therefore My Father loves Me, because I lay down My life that I may take it again. No one takes it from Me, but I lay it down of Myself. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it again. This command I have received from My Father.”

We know that the words “lay down life” are actually tithemi psuche, which is more accurately translated “set forth soul,” and we now understand what tithemi psuche means from Psalm 22.

Nonetheless the word thanatos does appear inside the Ekenosis and inside our Symmorphy with God. Here are the verses.

And having been found in outward appearance as a human, He humbled Himself, actively becoming hearing-under all the way to death, even the death of the cross. – That I might know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, having already been symmorphosed, sharing the same form, with His death (Philippians 2:8 & 3:10).

Jesus Himself did not die. His physical body died, but He Himself continued without interruption. And Jesus’ physical body was not “taken” from Him. Rather, He let go of it Himself, but only for a brief moment.

This “death,” then, this redeeming death which we have always shared with Jesus, is not the loss  of the physical body, neither is it any kind of an “end” of ourselves, for we live in the power of an endless life, just as Jesus did and does.

And so this “death,” which we have always shared fully with Jesus, has nothing to do with sin or with the elimination of the old man or with living inside a false story or with the splitting apart of the physical from the spiritual, the divorce of heaven and earth, known as physical death.

This “death” is indeed a way of living; it is, in fact, being just like God.

It means very simply that, while we never demean ourselves for any reason, nonetheless, when push comes to shove, we value our brother or sister’s heart and interests above our own such that we joyfully draw them into our hearts that they might meet together with Father sharing our agony with us, that they might arise into LIFE and joy entirely free of us.

It is answering God with these words, “Here am I, and this brother or sister whom You have given me.”

It is the “death” of taking your brother or sister with you into LIFE.

It is the opposite of Adam. It is life forevermore.

And Paul said that we have shared this quality with Jesus from the very start. In learning what it means to “take our brother with us,” we are simply learning what we have always been.

In the next two chapters we want to pull together everything we have learned thus far concerning calling our God into our world and into the knowledge of all. The next chapter, “Drawing Heart and Heart,” looks at our words and actions towards each of these two we are bringing together, God and the one who is lost. Then, the following chapter, “Joining Heart with Heart,” is a study of how the fabric of Father’s heart and the fabric of this one human heart are joined together as one and specifically how we contribute to that joining.

It is evident that we could never do this, even if we knew all the words of such calling, unless we first shared Hheart fully with God, unless we first knew nothing else.

And of course, as you can see, this joining together of Heart with heart inside of us as firstfruits, while it heals God’s heart from six thousand years of cruel abuse, it also heals our hearts just as much.

You see, this is why there are sometimes such large gaps of time in-between writing the chapters of my life story. I was writing about my time at Family Christian Academy at the end of December. Suddenly, I could write no more, for my heart was caught in agony. It is now nearly two months later that I can finally return to finishing my time at Family Christian with joy, for my heart is no longer in pain.

It is the Salvation of Christ that heals my heart, but because I am human, it takes time.

What have we done? How we have shattered one another’s hearts and the Father’s as well!

To call your brother’s heart evil is to call Jesus evil, for He is their heart.

All hurt we have ever carried inside ourselves has been the immediate and only consequence of our accusations against God and our contempt for other people. We are the only ones who have inflicted wounds upon ourselves.

Let me describe, now, as best I can, the Heart of Father shared utterly with a man or a woman, you or me, as our hearts and His heart are HEALED – this shared Hheart that is capable of being Salvation Revealed, capable of joining Father’s Heart together with the heart of this one who is so lost, even to attacking us.

Consider fully the One who patiently endured such great contradiction from sinners against Himself (Hebrews 12:3).

In doing so, I will use “I” as in a confession of faith. This is NOT me of myself, but rather Jesus. Yet He lives as me. For that reason, when we speak “I am,” we are calling ourselves by Jesus our only life. And as we speak, so we think, as we think, so we see, and as we see, so we are.

In fact, this is where the first portion of Hebrews 12 actually fits, for we have never before known what it meant. This, then, is from The Jesus Secret II – God Offers Me as His Son.

I run with all confident eagerness through this great conflict set before me, that God would have me share with and reveal the Atonement that Jesus won for the sake of His Church. Surrounding me are all the witnesses of Christ in the heavens cheering me on, for I am their hope. In my eagerness to know God in Christ in me, carrying His Church inside Himself through my every stumbling step, I have long since abandoned any thought of disconnection from God. I endure patiently and, together with Jesus, turn all my difficulties into blessing for others.

I see Jesus alone; I look steadfastly into Him. Jesus is the Source and the Completion of my faith, which is always His faith in me. I press through all the words spoken against me and against Christ my life. I think nothing of any loss, for the joy and delight of my treasure I set always before my face, which is God’s people set free into Him,

Even in this great exercise of sharing Hheart with God for the sake of His people, I am already seated inside of the right hand of God. I never lose courage inside my soul for Jesus alone is my heart. And I consider how Jesus also endured through all the speaking against. For that reason, I always set the Blood against any agonizing and false claims of sin against me or against my brothers and sisters. I do not know any disconnection from God.

I am so encouraged and filled with confidence of heart that God speaks me as His son. I endure all the difficulties of life knowing that God is treating with me as a son. I embrace the training of the Lord as He teaches me Christ inside of and through my every circumstance. I am strengthened in heart as my Father convinces me of Himself, that He is utterly with me. You see, I know that Jesus loves me and openly receives me inside of Himself, causing me to know Him and to know that He directs my every step even through many things that are very difficult outwardly.

The most wonderful thing happens in my consciousness, then, as I patiently receive every difficult circumstance and every stumbling step as Father with me, sharing my agony, and together blessing others through it, so I come to know that my God offers me as a son for their sake. I share in that love of Jesus that wins all to Himself.

I place myself under with Father for their sakes. I live inside of God and God inside of me forevermore. God benefits me with Himself, all of God filling me full, and shares full devotion with me, my Father devoted to me and I devoted to Him in return. As I pass through these daily exercises of sharing Hheart with God through many difficulties, closing my ears to all speaking against, even so I know and enjoy all the good fruit of God.

God’s Offering. God offers me as His own son for the sake of my brothers and sisters in Christ. I am God’s offering to them. My daily difficulties are no longer for myself, but the travail I share with God my Father is always for the sake of others. The Church in the heavens is hoping in me; the Church on the earth is carried inside the Hheart I now share with Father.

In all parts of His sacrifice, Jesus shares Himself with me, that I might be His redemptive expression towards all my brethren. I am ashamed of nothing; I endure all things patiently. I see Jesus alone, as through me He brings to silence all voices that speak against the Word God speaks. No difficulty of life is “against me,” but all things are for others through me.

As I love my brothers and sisters in Christ, giving favor and blessing to them, so God offers me as His son as a sweet-smelling aroma to Himself and as His knowledge in every place. My body is God’s temple; my body is His offering. God offers me as His son for the sake of all. I am the good fruit of God.

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I want to bring this now into a specific expression of my heart and Father’s Heart healed together as we walk every stumbling step together. Please understand, this is not an easy thing for me as has been proven out in recent weeks, yet it is Jesus who proves Himself faithful and true inside of  me.

All that I am belongs to Father; all that He is belongs to me. My heart is His; His Heart is mine. Father and I share every step and moment of life together. It never enters my mind that my Father is not utterly with me, sharing this present moment as one together with me and as two sharing sweet communion.

I see the Heart of God through Jesus upon the cross, forgiving His worst opponents, welcoming me into Himself. There, inside of Jesus is the only place I know. Yet I recognize that Jesus sees His entire Church, all whom the Father has given Him, and I know that her protection and her love in return is everything to Him.

I also recognize that Love is not something designed into the capacity of the human me; I am incapable of producing Love. Love is God; me loving others is only God through me. My weakness is my glory, for I know God through me. I know that Love is not up to me, but only my confidence in rest in God.

And I know that the Love of God is shed abroad in my heart through the Holy Spirit given to me, for the Holy Spirit is my spirit as He is God’s Spirit. I share Sspirit with my Father.

It is Love, then, that flows forth from me as rivers, Love that begins first as compassion. I see all my brethren across the earth, millions upon millions, and I know that they do not know, that they wander as sheep without a shepherd, not knowing the Salvation who already holds them close inside Himself. I am aware of the mental blockages, the foolishness, the refusal, the many false worships, yet none of that matters, but only the Love of Jesus longing over each one.

I join myself to that longing Love, entirely by faith, by the confidence and speaking of my mouth, because I would be with Jesus. I would be part of Father’s Heart.

Father, here am I, here inside of Your Heart, I AND all my brethren with me.