36. Forged in Fire

© Daniel Yordy – 2020

God cannot just create a normal human being operating by normal human psychology any more than He could create Himself. A human who is like God must be forged inside the fire, in all the agony of the human psyche.

This One [Jesus], in the days of His flesh, offered, with loud crying and tears, both heart-felt prayers and an olive branch of peace towards the One able to save Him continuously out from death and was always heard because of His careful reverence, though being a Son, He learned submission to what was spoken by [giving thanks in] all the circumstances, good or bad, acting upon Him. And having been brought to full completion and perfection, He became the causation of and responsibility for age-unfolding salvation to all who are hearing Him (Hebrews 5:7-9).

Let this exact same gut-level manner of thinking be inside of you that was inside of Christ Jesus, who existing continuously and actively inside of the form and existence of God [that is, all here now and Personal in us], did not hold tightly to the gut assumption of being equal with God. Rather, having already willingly taken hold of the form of a slave, Himself ekenosen, that is, He Himself called an invisible God into visibility, becoming the same as humans. And having been found in outward appearance as a human, He humbled Himself, that is, revealed God as one who sees others as better, actively becoming hearing-under for the sake of others all the way to death, even the death of the cross (Philippians 2:5-8).

This letter, then, is a study of normal human psychology. I have titled it “Forged in Fire” because we come to know who and what we are ONLY by seizing hold of God all through the long hours of the night, God belonging to us and we to Him, and never letting go.

And the end of this night and the immediate result of our knowing our full connection with God is the elimination of demons from the human experience.

We had a family over for Sunday dinner, a brother and his wife whom we have known for many years. We had a wonderful visit. Nonetheless, as is my present wont, I did not sleep very long Sunday night and I headed into an early Monday morning feeling AWFUL, emotionally, mentally, and physically. Worst of all, I could not write anything.

I knew all the autistic feelings of inadequacy and of imagining that I had talked too much (which I probably did). And so I said to my Father, utterly part of me, sharing everything with me, “Thank You, Father, for having made me Asperger’s, and for all of these awful feelings I carry. Thank You, Father, that You share all this agony with me.”

That is the first time I have said quite those things in such quiet certainty and rest, to know, in perfect peace, that my autistic feelings are entirely part of my Father with me, and part of the revelation of Jesus through me.

Why? Why is it that God cannot just create Christ as me in all my knowing? Why must I know sharing Hheart with God only through the fire?

Bottom line. All evil, all sin, all death, all cruelty, all rebellion, all hurt, all of it comes out from one thing and from one place, that is, if Paul is telling us the truth.

All of it came out of the heart of one man, one human heart, who HATED, HATED, HATED being like God, and who preferred to imagine himself as better than God.

Why? So he could strut in front of others as “the man.”

And so we have been, and so we have done.

When I said to my Father, part of my own soul, “Thank You, Father, for making me Asperger’s,” I no longer needed or wanted to be better than God.

Yet that is not sufficient in itself. Sharing Hheart with God requires motivation – “Father, You share my agony with me for the sake of these dear precious ones, that they might know You.”

You see, the fire that removes false self-exaltation in us is doing something far more for us. The removal is just a side benefit. What is really happening is that you and I are being forged in the only place where we can become – inside the Fire.

We have spent the last several chapters looking at all the many incredible nuances of Word that are these thoughts of Father becoming us through the good-speaking of Jesus. And our main purpose in this overall study is to know the words that are our Father, by which we call Him into our world and into the hearts of each person whom we meet. [For the present reader, I have not yet written Chapters 27-33, but I have a good idea of what will be in them.]

Here, however, I want to look at the psychology of a normal human, that means you and me filled with God.

If you were to tell that strutting human, born again and filled with the Spirit but still hating human weakness and still lusting after heavenly superiority, that God was part of him and he was part of God, you would soon find him stroking the excitement of being superior over his brothers and sisters. “I am God’s prophet for today.”

That’s why God placed a barrier before the tree of life and drove away humans who were empty of the knowledge of God.

Let me define “the tree of life.” The tree of life is being enclothed with Jesus, Jesus connecting me with everything. It is living inside of John 14:20. And our VICTORY over sin, death, and Satan, is living inside the psychology of Father-with-me, a God who is meek and lowly of heart and who is always lifting others up.

There are three Persons inside of me, inside my form, sharing form with me.

One of those persons is me. “Hi, I’m Daniel, a human created in weakness, living always by the Spirit, by the breath of God upon my body of flesh.”

One of those Persons is God. “Hi, I’m God, the Father, I share Daniel’s life and soul with him, and he shares My Life and Soul with Me.”

And one of those Persons is Jesus. “Hi, I’m Jesus, dwelling here in Daniel’s heart as his very and only life. My purpose for living inside of Daniel is that I might connect him always with Oour Father and Father with him.” [Put your name instead of mine and speak these out loud.]

Because of Jesus, God is very much an essential part of my human soul, and I am very much a part of God’s divine Soul in that which pertains to me. [Again, God never mixes up His thoughts concerning you with His thoughts concerning me. God always respects the integrity of our human persons.]

God’s mind, emotions, and desires are mine, and my mind, emotions, and desires are God’s. This communion of soul exists, then, inside the form of Oour shared Spirit and Oour shared flesh, always together as a living body towards all heaven-earth.

I am God revealed, together with all my brothers and sisters in Christ as we love one another.

What I mean to say is that I am sensing the thickening of a very real Person coating all that I am with Himself as part of me. And again, I use “I” and “me” only to make what I am sharing personal, so that you can say and know the same things as your Father thickens inside of you in your knowing of yourself.

God begins with willingness. His first question is always, “Will you receive?” and our first answer is always, “I will.”

And thus God planted giving thanks as a seed inside my heart when I was fifteen years old.

Here are the first three things God spoke to me as His personal voice inside my spirit, all three when I was nineteen. (1) My son. (2) My Spirit will guide you into all truth. (3) Will you surrender all that you are to Me right now.

Now, I say that “Giving thanks” was a seed, but only a seed. I fought with God for years in willful frustration. And I never won! I never won.

Give thanks was what was left, then, as the only thing remaining every single time I lost. And you know what the bottom line of all that through years really was? It was my utter certainty that God was part of my life. I fought against Him because He was part of my life, and I yielded to Him in giving thanks because He was part of my life.

Here are the first three things God spoke to me after I joined with Christian community, when I was twenty and twenty-one. (1) A sword shall pierce through your own soul also, that the thoughts of many hearts might be revealed. (2) You are My son. (3) Will you surrender all that you are to Me right now.

And these two sets of three words each came just a few years after God placed “give thanks” in my consciousness.

Now, don’t think that these words defined anything I thought about myself. Rather, I stumbled through confused hurt after hurt, punctuated by wonderful experiences with God and with His people. It is only now that I realize that these words defined God’s intention concerning me, though I knew it not.

GETHSEMANE.

Gethsemane is the real turning point of the ages, the place where everything begins. The cross and the resurrection were nothing more than necessary and obvious extensions of Gethsemane.

The Greek word agonia is found one time in the Bible. Tyndale could not find an English word that matched it, so he simply brought it straight into English – agony.

And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly. Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground (Luke 22:44).

The issue of Gethsemane was will with will, desire with desire, choosing with choosing.
Not My will, not My desire, but Thine be done.

Yet Jesus had just informed the Father of His desire just a few minutes before – Father, I DESIRE that these whom You gave Me might be with Me where I am.

The issue of choosing is the central difficulty of symmorphy. Gethsemane was the beginning of symmorphy, for you and I were already INSIDE of Jesus when He said, “Thy will be done.” Jesus’ voice and our voice were the same.

The agony of Gethsemane was Jesus becoming us. Our giving thanks in the midst of agony is how we know that He has.

Giving thanks is the bottom-line of normal human psychology. According to Paul, Adam eliminated giving thanks from his own heart before he ever bit into death.

I shared my autistic difficulty from having “talked too much.” But this last Sunday morning, I was feeling very weak before the Zoom meeting. I gave thanks for my weakness and placed my Father entirely with me in it before the meeting began. Nonetheless, I felt weak the whole time. At the end of the session, we prayed a prayer of deliverance for the Church, casting down the demon that limits the Atonement, that limits the meaning of Gethsemane in our lives.

I spent the next twenty-four hours in pain, unreasonable autistic pain. I did not separate my Father from myself because of the pain, neither did I dwell on it, but rather put my attention elsewhere. The pain did not diminish, however. The only reason it was bearable was because I have come to understand myself. For many years it was not bearable at all.

By the early hours of Monday morning, I broke into sobs of weeping. “Father, I did not mean to be this way. I did not mean to have this much pain. Please forgive me, Father.”

I knew His words to me in similar past experiences, that He shares everything with me, so I simply rested in that knowing.

Here’s what I mean to say. Giving thanks is how we KNOW that God’s desires and our desires are the same, that we share will with God.

My intention is not to magnify my autistic pain, for that would be pointless, but to magnify giving thanks. I share of myself that you might connect with God in a similar way yourself.

Through the course of my life, then, giving thanks turned into “Justify God in all things and find Him right and true. Do not place blame upon anyone, including yourself.” From the time God brought this word to completion in me, in March of 1997, I have lived in full acceptance of God having His way in my life.

Then, give thanks turned into “Speak good grace into everything.” And then “turn all things, including everything meant for evil, into the outcome of goodness.”

And thus God’s seed of “give thanks,” planted into the heart of a confused and rebellious fifteen-year-old boy, became God’s purpose for my existence, and that is to synergeo with Him to make all things good.

Give thanks is the Eucharist, and the Eucharist is transubstantiation whereby Jesus’ Spirit becomes our spirit and Jesus’ flesh becomes our flesh as we eat of Him. Give thanks is the first part of the bond between God and us. It is Jesus, our Gethsemane, inside of us.

The source of all normal human psychology is “give thanks.” It causes everything else going on in our minds and souls and hearts to fit together with God in peace. Giving thanks is my acceptance of God as a Person inside of my person.

Let’s go next to the mind. The mind is the largest part of our knowing of ourselves.

This is interesting. In this layout, we must place the brain mind and the heart/gut mind together, or, in the Greek, the nous and the phroneo. Our thoughts are found in both, and most of those thoughts bounce back and forth between the two.

And the thoughts of our mind/heart are words. They are the story we tell ourselves about ourselves.

The rebellion of unthankfulness – “God, I hate the way You made me; I despise being like You.” – belonged entirely to Adam. But the words that poured into Adam’s mind came out from the twisting of the serpent.

Someone made the observation recently that what I write is just “words,” words that can be repeated without meaning. That is absolutely correct. Everything I write comes through my mind before it appears on the page.

And every reader is contending with God – or not. Every reader, according to Jesus, finds exactly what they seek.

I cannot cause anyone to give thanks. I cannot make anyone deal face to Face, grip to Grip, with God in Person. Grabbing hold of God-in-you and never letting go of Him through the long hours of the night, as Jacob did, is entirely personal to each one.

This greatest of issues is ONLY between you-God and God-you and it covers the entire spectrum of your life.

Speaking what God says you are CANNOT change the intentions of your heart nor cause you to KNOW Father with you. One thing only will do that – giving thanks when it hurts, together with Jesus inside of Gethsemane.

We cannot place the cart before the horse. The horse is “give thanks” (or not); everything that follows goes only where the horse takes it. The cart, then, is the thoughts of our heart and mind. And our emotions follow behind, as a bunch of cows tied to the cart, making lots of noise.

I have written about the words of our mind, the story we tell ourselves about ourselves, probably more than any other topic. It is the Jesus Secret. And I change the way I think by speaking Christ as me BECAUSE OF my desperate NEED to know Father-with-me. Those who do not share that desperate need will not benefit much from what I write.

Let this exact same gut-level manner of thinking (phroneo) be inside of you that was inside of Christ Jesus. – We have the mind (nous) of Christ.

We are just like Jesus only as we think the same thoughts about ourselves, in heart and brain, as Jesus thought about Himself.

The devil alters only one word in the formula of all human thinking.

Jesus thinks, “God is; I am.”

The serpent changes one word only, “am” to “ought.” “God is; you ought.”

If the anointed angel had spoken the truth, he would have said, “God said that you ARE just like God. That means that God shows Himself to me and to all of heaven through your human weakness. I will know God only as I observe you humans loving one another in all your stumbling steps.”

If the angel had spoken the truth, he would have honored Adam and Eve in their weak forms with humility. And Adam would have been astonished and pleased that he was, in fact, like God.

But changing our minds from thinking like the devil to thinking like Jesus is a process and it takes time. And our thinking changes ONLY as we speak ONLY the pure words that are Jesus now made personal as us.

Because, these who are summoned out from God’s Pro-knowing, knowing God’s knowing of them, God Pro-Determined them, with all the passion of His Being, as being symmorphosed with, merged together with, sharing one form with the image of His Son as the revelation of Father, into the reality of Christ Jesus being the firstborn among and in MANY brethren, the first one of our kind, sharing the same Father and mother.

“Symmorphosed with” means, in its essence, “sharing the same self-story with Jesus, His story now mine, and my story now His.” It is placing Jesus upon every moment of our lives.

Speaking “Christ made personal as you” changes your mind only IF it is Jesus Himself causing you to know Himself as you in every moment and circumstance.

Speaking what God says you are means something ONLY when it takes place inside a direct, immediate, and continuous involvement between you and Jesus, Person to person, and Person inside of person inside of Person.

If it ain’t Jesus; it ain’t.

You see, we’re not interested in the psychology of “a son of God,” whatever that is. We are interested in the psychology of “Father-with-me.” Father connects with us only through Jesus.

“Summoned out from God’s Pro-knowing” means that the thoughts of God concerning me are the only thoughts of my mind, the words by which I live.

The best rendition of “speaking a pure word” that I have written is found here: https://christrevealed.info/life/one (Symmorphy V: Life – Chapter 3). Let’s continue on, now, to our emotions, God sharing His emotions with us.

But first, let’s place the three parts of our human psychology together again. AND – we have to resolve the issue of “two minds,” nous and phroneo. Very simply, our brain thoughts come into harmony with the words written as Jesus upon our hearts as we speak Christ made personal as us.

Here, then, is the layout of our makeup. And we use this only as an educational tool in the classroom. We are not chopped up into pieces in our real makeup.

Physical body – emotions – brain mind – heart mind – desires & choices – spiritual body.
Full salvation, then, is wholeness and harmony all the way through.

It would be easy to write a list of the verses that place God inside every one of these parts that are our psychological makeup. Here is one such list: (The Feast of Tabernacles: Thinking Like Jesus.) https://christrevealed.info/tabernacles/like-jesus.

It is important to understand, I think, that our emotions are right next to our flesh. And, in fact, our emotions from our entire life are written in all the cells of our body.

Here is what we said. Every word of our mind/heart carries with it an emotion and attaches itself to a desire. This is a concept that we can ponder over time to see what it might mean.

Our emotions are all tied up with our experiences in the physical world, what we see and hear and feel, what hurts us and what blesses us.

And if there’s one thing we learn from the Psalms and the Prophets, it is that God is a very EMOTIONAL Person. There is not a single human emotion that is not a tiny and dim expression of God’s HUGE and VIVID emotions.

A human without emotions and desires is a mindless and meaningless slave.

How do I KNOW that my emotions, which are many and varied and turbulent and in and out and up and down, are my Father’s emotions, and that He is sharing with me what He also feels way more than I could ever feel?

Giving thanks places me with God, but knowing that my emotions are God sharing His feelings with me places God with me.

I KNOW because I asked God, “Let it be to me according to Your word,” and because I believe that I have received what I ask.

You see, it’s really easy for the words that I write to KILL you. All you have to do for that to happen is to fail to engage directly with God concerning what HE speaks. I cannot make you do that, but I can contend with you concerning the fear of God.

The first time God said to me, “Will you surrender all that you are to Me right now,” these were not questions, God was not asking me “pretty please,” these were overwhelming demands. The first time, as soon as I said, “Yes Lord,” I was filled with the Holy Ghost with a heavenly language pouring out from my innermost being, which has continued until today.

BUT the second time God hit me with those same words, I was trembling with the fear of the Almighty from top to bottom in a public place. I ran into the only private place I knew, a closed toilet stall, before I turned to face that FEAR and to squeak out, “Yes, Lord.” Yet that second time was just as much filled with the Holy Ghost as the first.

You have to deal with God and nothing and no one else.

God speaks. – What do you do with what He says?

It’s either life or death.

“I will NOT let You go until You do what You speak inside of me.”

It gets fierce; it gets really fierce.

And yet – to ask and to believe we have received is the assurance of our faith. It is the wondrous release to run as children playing pirates through all the Holiness of God Himself, grabbing everything we find and making it our own.

And why can we do that? Because everything is already finished. Because God has already glorified us as all that Jesus is.

God said, “that you might be filled with ALL the FULLNESS of GOD.” I asked, “Father, let it be to me according to what You say,” and now I believe that I have received all that I asked.

Do you see the wondrous foundation of peace this simple exercise gives me, that I can take my autistic pain, unreasonable and unfixable, that for years caused me to imagine that God was far away from me, and say, “Father, this is You, sharing Your own emotions with me.”

Christ is all there is in me. I cannot feel anything that is not my Father sharing Himself with me. Because I asked, and because I believe.

This is the true psychology of a normal human being. This is how we think “Father-with-me” all through the consciousness of our human souls. And a significant part of this self-awareness will be “through faith” forever.

We know God-with-me because we have refused all other knowing inside the fire.